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| User: | cdew (3212784) How to Bathe a Cat
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| Name: | cdew | ||||
| Website: | mooncereal | ||||
| Location: | Cincinnati, Ohio, United States | ||||
| Birthdate: | 1979-01-03 | ||||
| Bio: | I first started this journal as kind of a bemused joke, allowing myself to let my friend ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} jou set me up with a free account. I let HER do it because that way it takes the impetus off of me; I did not choose myself to start an online journal, but was merely a victim of the good intentions of a misguided friend. That explanation, of course, does not do Jou justice, as I'm quite sure I goaded her into doing it for me, allowing her to act out a wish I was all too sophisticated to actually have. My first entry was like all first entries, somewhat bewildered, not sure where to take off, but feeling the need to justify the journal in some way. I told myself I wasn't going to let this journal become some dark, whiny little pity-party, but I would be upbeat, try to stay positive, and keep it light-hearted and funny. As I'm nearing the year-long point and have started to settle into my own rhythm and style, and my journal is beginning to take on it's own personality, I realize that I am failing miserably in that. *sigh* Oh well. But I am now so attached to my journal, and the interactions of a handful of readers and other journal-ers, that I couldn't think of giving it up. So now I have a purpose for this bio besides trying to be cute or snippy. Namely, to reassure those that stumble here that I do indeed consider myself to be more or less a happy, stable, down-to-earth person. I love the sunshine, warm weather, spicy food, ...among other things that I really should be listing in the next section, "Interests"....ah... shit. So why write such dark entries? And why leave them public? I believe we all have deeper sides to our personalities whether we are in touch with them or not. (Some may consider that deepness to be darkness.) I am certainly in touch with mine, particularly as I go through a large transitional period of my life. I have had a lot of time to consider the course my life has taken thus far, the lives of those around me, and while the positive ruminations don't spark me to express myself creatively, the darker ones do. I am a pretty solid atheist but like all people I search for some sort of spiritual truth in the world around me. The ancient mythology of most established religions don't speak to me so I begin to create my own myths, and take spiritual questions to mundane experiences. This journal has become the first effective venue I have had for exploring these themes, as well as a painless way to practice and hone my writing skills. I'm not sitting here trying to claim that I am entirely successful at reaching these ideals, or that I'm strickly limiting my journal to these definitions, but simply that these are the themes I find myself repeatedly dealing with here. I am not motivated to write or explore to such a degree without an audience. To keep these entries private and write them only to myself seems to be avoiding the battle, as well as the point. By attempting to explain my ideas to someone else, in fact, to everyone else, I feel I can grasp the mood more deeply and definitively. Also, how rare is it that we get to connect to another human on a deeper level? The relative anonymity of the internet seems to allow for such intimacy. Additionally, I am finding myself at a bit of a crisis as a visual artist, as I'm not sure the work I am doing expresses all that much of the thoughts that are going on inside me. I suppose that there are other purposes that art fulfilles, and maybe my art should not really be used in an expressive manner at all. As I yet again struggle to decide which direction to push my art in, this journal provides a consistant creative outlet, and a sense of clarity in a field in which I am yet again riddled with self-doubt. Right. So, like I said -- Happy. Stable. Down-to-earth. | ||||
| Interests: | 25: alternative crafts, art, athens ohio, bluegrass, books, chicago, cincinnati, crafts, crochet, design, folk art, hiking, independent comics, independent press, international education, mexico, npr, old time, pbs, small press, some other stuff, spanish, union of concerned scientists, west virginia, zines | ||||
| Schools: | None listed | ||||
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| Mutual Friends: | 8: ericadams, jou, mandrill, mannikin, mavra_chang, overdeferred, pixleyart, savvyminx | ||||
| Also Friend of: | 1: morphwvutuba | ||||
| Member of: | 2: dollieclubhouse, punk_knitters | ||||
| Account type: | Basic Account | ||||
